well its a year tomorrow bab where does time go it only seems like yesterday. i keep thinking this time last year you were still here if only id known perhaps i could have done something. why isnt it getting any easier les why does this yearning and this longing still persist,why did you leave me,there are so many whys and i cant get no answers and its tearing me apart,i dont think i can go on like this for much longer because i really dont no what to do and i dont no how to carry on without you.im so tired les im tired of trying to be alright and putting a brave face on when all i want to do is scream and shout,im tired of the loneliness and the hurt and i keep thinking why do i keep waking up when all i want is to be with you and my mum and dad,ive had enough les i want it to go away and i want to stop feeling like this.i get so frightened bab cos i dont no what to do or where to turn,i want you here with me i want to feel your arms round me and hear you tell me it will be alright and i ache to hear you say you love me why did you leave me why,i love you les i always have and i miss you so much. xxxxxx