hi sweetie well ive been busy ive decorated the hall and living room,i hope youre proud of me and what ive done.i missed you though bab you wouldve been making me a cup of tea and then telling me to stop cos id done enough,what am i going to do without you hey,its the stupid things like decorating that make it worse.you wouldve painted me the skirting boards because you knew i wasnt very good at painting them.i cried so much when i first started doing it,you should be here with me helping me with these things this time last year you were still here how can you not be here,i know i keep saying it but i miss you so much and theres so much i want to say to you,why did this happen les how could you be ok and then suddenly be gone i keep asking myself why i didnt ask questions when it happened.i want so much to understand i want to know why when you looked so well you took ill so suddenly theres so many questions les and i dont have any answers.i love you babe i always have sleep tight my sweet xxxxx