hi bab how are you better than me i bet,i thought it was getting better les but it isnt why cant i stop crying i try so hard but i just cant seem to get it together,i feel so alone les and i dont no what to do.why arent you here why did you leave me when i need you so much.im not feeling to good at the moment and you wouldve have looked after me and i miss that so much,how do i get through this les i wish i knew because right now i cant see any light at the end of this tunnel.i try so hard to be positive and it just doesnt work i wish i could have you back or at least be with you.i feel like theres nothing left here for me anymore and i hate feeling like this,i really dont want to go down that road again les but i can feel myself slipping and i dont think ive got the strengh to stop it happening.its like being in a darkness and you cant see a light to lead the way,p;ease be my light and help me cos i dont think i can do this alone i need you so much i love you les xxxxxxx