hi sweetie hope you like the photo of our baby he really enjoyed the snow i wish you couldve been there with me.i still miss you so much im going to start in the garden soon so i hope you will be there helping me cos you know im no good at that sort of thing .why arent you here les you should be here with me,sorry bab im trying really i am went to your alan and jans at the weekend colin did a mexican night so i stayed at jans,i enjoyed it got a bit tipsy so for a couple of hours i could forget perhaps i should turn to drink.dont worry im not going to you know me better than that,but i wish there was something to stop this pain and this longing i feel,i ache for you just to feel your arms round me oh god les i miss you so much i love you babe xxxxx