hi bab hope you are ok i wish i was why wont this pain go away les i thought i was coping so well but you no what im not.i miss you so much and the weather doesnt help i no we wouldnt have gone anywhere but at least you wouldve have been here and that wouldve made such a difference.im so tired les im tired of crying all the while and trying to put a brave face on so people think im ok.im sorry for burdening you with this but i havent really got anyone else.i no people care and thats great but they dont want to hear or see me being miserable theyve got their own lives and their own problems.im sorry i havent been able to get to the cemetery bab i no you would say it doesnt matter but it matters to me anyway hopefully ill be able to get this weekend i hope so.ill see you soon babe love you xxxxxx