hi babe me again i seem to be a bit better since going on the tablets i had to go back on them les even though i didnt want to,you see the thoughts i kept having were frightening me and i no you wouldnt want me to do anything silly.ill tell you this les i came close real close and thats what frightened me,its ok folks saying its selfish but they havent been to that place,its so dark and so lonely its like theres nothing and nowhere to go noone to turn to and all i could think about was being with you and my mum and dad.i still miss you so much but at least im coping better,i no you have been with me helping me and giving me the strengh to go on thank you for that.dont leave me just yet will you i love you babe xxxxx