why isnt it getting any easier bab i keep thinking perhaps tomorrow will be better but it never is.i sit and wonder if its the time of the year i hate yhe dark nights and yet at one time i loved them, its not the same now you arent here.the shops are full of christmas things now and its awful you loved christmas so much remember how you used to send our bess in to wake me up on christmas morning,i can hear you now saying go and wake mam up tell her santas been.oh les i miss you so much and i cant bear the thought of never hearing your voice again or hearing you laugh i used to love to hear you laugh i love you sweetie and i want you back here with me.should i have done more? could i have done more? did you wonder where i was on that night?did you ask for me?all these questions and no answers,i wish i could have some answers well you stay close babe i love you xxxxx