hi babe what can i say that i havent already said i sit here thinking about you all the time.i dont know how to get through this les im so lost without you.im trying so hard to be strong and i just cant seem to get it together.all my family have been so good and i dont know what id do without your alan and jan and the kids,but it doesnt make it any easier.sometimes i think its all a bad dream and ill wake up and youll be here,telling me its ok everything will be alright.i so long to feel your arms around me,hear you tell me you love me.the pain is indescribable and i dont no what to do oh les i miss you so much why did you leave me.its so lonely without you and to be honest i dont know if im going to make it i dont think i can carry on without you here,you were my best ftiend and my rock i love you so much and i cant wait to see you again whenever that might be.stay around awhile babe wont you. i love you xxxxxx